Fourth Watch

To become a good school prefect, I must admit, responsibility is not enough but also fair to everyone else. It’s really hectic you know. It’s hard to choose between friends and duty. I almost giving up half way but knowing this is could be a good lesson for me one day, I took the opportunity to learn what is good and what is bad and even how to deal with the difficult people. After all, not everybody is hard to handle as well. Another hard time as a school prefect will be told once again. I may not be a good leader but I am good dealer in some other way. I may be a busybody in this story but if keep on close my eyes, who’s going to responsible for that. Every prefect have their responsible and if their team mates are not a good player, they have right to say something make everything back into the track. This is what happens between me and Rodney. Thought, these recent years I’ve been thinking what he’d been doing, I hope that he’ll grow mature and stop becomes the opportunist. Well, who knows for sure anyway? I am on my own way to the top and while he was disappeared all the way. I never fancy him because for me he is rather being the prankster not someone to become a leader. You’ll hate him if you get to know him. He is so disturbing kind of person. Worst than Ranggi! (No offence Sulastrie, it’s true.)

One day, on 1994, I was on my duty on the fourth day of a week. I was replacing Jemeris that had to go home to attend the mourning ceremony. I’m not sure who’s gone because I asked never anyone about it. Therefore, I have to works double shift on the day that he left. That day I was pair up with Rodney. At first, it’s never a big deal for me until I found out myself that Rodney was very difficult person to work with and Ijan always complained about his attitude in front of me and Ming Ing. As we work together, he left me all alone to do my own job for the rest of the early morning. I saw he was just talking to the other girls. He never helped me to manage the student who’s wanted to get the name card from us. He abandoned me and I was so pissed off. On the class, I’ve told Ita that I was very upset with Rodney attitude that left all alone to his job. What’s that all about and I feel very much tired now. I haven’t finished the job yet and I’ve decided to do second plan and this will let him know that he can’t bully me all around. Ita told me that Rodney is very difficult partner to work with and just like, she was wondering why the teacher pick him at the first place. Who knows what’s happening as well.

On the recess time, he’d done it once again. He let me to watch the students all by myself while he was busy flirting with Jacinta. Jacinta was actually very unconditional person that I’ve ever met in my life. Another time she was nice and another time she was very much bad person. Huh! Another opportunist had come to cloud my mind. My patience was drain and I’ve decided to ask Rodney for help as I have no longer to do it all by myself. When I approached him, I was telling him that I can’t do the duty all by myself and I was needs his help very badly. However, instead of Rodney answered my questioned, it was Jacinta was bursting all out and told me to stay away from them. What? I was definitely feels strange about it. I was waiting for Rodney to answer question my answer. As I was out o patience, I was questioned Jacinta that is she is his lawyer and why should she interfere at the first place. She started to call me fat girl and dumb girl. I was very much tired with their attitude calling me fat girl and I’ve decided to stop them at least once. I let her to talk first until I’ve started to do very much bad attacking on her. No, don’t worry, I’m not the kind of girl that used physical violence. I am more to mental violence.

She keeps on bullied me on how I look. Then, I’ve told her that to stop it. I’ve started to tell her that my parent loves me and never abandoned me at the first place. That’s the reason I’ve got these body figure. They make sure I eat properly to make me healthy and unlike her, she was too thin and it looks like someone has abandoned by their parent at the first place. Not only that, she was lack of love from parent and hoping for the boy to love her. What a pity! Rodney was shut his damn mouth while she was feel very much angry on me. She almost slapped my face but I was challenged her to do that. I’ve told her that even if she slapped my face, it never hurt me deeply as much as the reality that had been faced by her. For a few moments, she left me and Rodney. Then, Rodney told me that he’ll cover for me this afternoon. I quickly told him that no thanks and I’ll do it all by myself because I can’t depend on him anymore. Besides, if he did not come, he’d already have someone to cover his work. I also left him with anger. I’ve never feel this kind of feeling before. In the class, I’ve never talk about it in front of anybody else. It’s between me, Rodney and Jacinta. Case close! Rodney seems never care about it and I took it he never did as well.

That afternoon, he came to do his work as well. We never talked about anything that just happen during the recess time this morning. He does his job and so do I. Well, as my feeling was cool off, I was thinking what I’ve been said. Some other times, I’ve shouldn’t done it. I may touched a very sensitive issue but if I’m not doing it and keep closing my two eyes, they’ll be bullied me for the rest of my school life and I’m not going to let it happen at least for a while. From that moment, Jacinta never calls me fat girl and not mentioning Rodney as well. Thought, Rodney never changes his attitude but when he faces me, he’ll make sure that his work will be done. While Jacinta, she treat me good until the end of her school time. She was two years older than me. For many years, I’ve been thinking where this big mouth girl has goes. Married? That was the first ever thing that ever crosses in my mind. Her child must be in primary school right now and I’m still here running for the ambition that I always wanted to achieve. I’ve never told to my parent about it until now and my dad was given me a credit that sometimes, some people should get a reality lesson. Gosh! What a hard day for me and I’ve got a lot of lesson from it as well.