DRIVE AWAY These Bad School Memories

GIRL NEXT DOOR
"Drive Away"

Chikagoro omou nda,
YUME wa mitsukeru mono janakute…
Kono te de egaku mono, nante ne

IMAGE wa ichibyou saki no mirai ni iru
Jibun no senaka o oikosu kankaku

Ugokidasa nakya, hajimaranai

Ima DOA o akete tobidasu no sa
Ano mokutekichi made
Akuseru o fumikondara
Hashiri tsudzukeru no,
Mayowazu ni me no mae ni aru michi o
Chiheisen o koete
Drive away
Dokomademo

Toki ni chizu ni wa nai basho de
Tohou ni kureru you na hi mo
Aru kamoshirenai kedo

Sore o toku kagi wa kitto aru

Ima dekiru koto o yaru shikanai
Tatoe machigatte mo
Kotae wa hitotsu janai nda
Yume o jitsugen suru no wa
Jibun ni shika dekinai kara
Atarashii sekai e
Drive away
Makenaide

Muda na koto nante nani hitotsu nai ne
Iku yo!

Ima DOA o akete tobidasu no sa
Nani mo kowaku wa nai
Bokura wa hitori janai kara
Hashiri tsudzukeru no,
Mayowazu ni me no mae ni aru michi o
Chiheisen o koete
Drive away
Dokomademo

Girl Next Door is a Japanese J-pop trio that debuted in 2008 on the Avex Trax label. The band consists of vocalist Chisa, guitarist Yuji Inoue and Daisuke Suzuki on keyboard.

Girl Next Door was formed in March, and subsequently made their official debut in September 2008. Originally a member of Ma-Kiss, Chisa was presented many times in front of Max Matsuura (founder of Avex) through Avex Artist Academy Show Case. After many attempts by AAA staff, Chisa was finally acknowledged by Max Matsuura and was then introduced to keyboard player Suzuki and guitar player, Inoue.

Chisa was born November 16, 1985 and grew up in Hyōgo Prefecture. Her full name is Chisa Maekawa (前川 千紗?).

Girl Next Door's debut single, "Gūzen no Kakuritsu" (偶然の確率?), was placed online on several sites from May 29, 2008. As of July 2008[update], there were two million views.

Over a period of three months from their debut, they have released three singles. On December 24, 2008, they released their self-titled debut album including songs from the three singles.

On December 22, 2008, the band's official fanclub "Next Door" opened.

The band's fifth single "Infinity" was released on June 10, 2009. It is also the theme song for the 2009 Spring tv show Atashinchi no Danshi and became their first #1 single. They also sang the OP song of the game Tales of VS using the song "Be your wings". The trio released their 6th single "Be Your Wings/Friendship/Wait for You" on August 5, 2009. It was their first triple A-side single.

Thanks to FumiyoKokoji of Jpopasia



* Courtesy of Wikipedia/YouTube

Real Me ~ MSOD Mystery Mix~

I'm fighter not a hero...

I know and absolutely understand that many of you out there are wanted to know and to see the person that I am. That because, recently, I’ve been asked by many students and teachers from my old school about the mystery blog which had created by me had sparks a controversy lately. When I saw the blog, I was definitely surprise that the blog that had showed by my friend was belong to me. Some had called it funny and some says it was scandal. I’m amused to hear many comments from them. Even my senior had written comments too. :P I think he likes it (is it?). However, he did ask who I am. He was just like my other ex-classmates and my ex-schoolmates. Winding up the years seems to be fun especially when it comes to the school old days. Unfortunately, they didn’t know the creator because for one thing, I’m never put my real name. No, I’m not a coward. But I’m rather being like this from the first day I wrote the blog. I don’t really like to be the centre of the attention although sometimes, the situation had drags me to that position.

I was pretty shy. I’m not a hero but only a fighter. No matter how it’s going to be I’m optimistic about happiness but I’m never been too disappointed if things didn’t get my way. Somehow, I always believe there are thousand of ways to survive without giving myself to cheapskate lifestyle. I wrote these based on my experience and based on my perspective of view. Even if people doesn’t want to accept it but in the reality, it’s really painful until it brings a trauma for the rest of our lives. As for myself, I was healed by time. I don’t blame many people if they come and read this story and at the end they’d called me nerdy bitch but anyway, I’m really love myself around that time. I don’t smoke and even do drugs. I don’t really rebel and I don’t want to be friends with someone that doesn’t wanted to become friends. That’s my policy. I was busy chasing the future that I’m looking for and I don’t care if they don’t like my lifestyle.

Breaking the rule isn’t cool but what does really cool is to be love, to appreciate and most of all feels satisfy the life that I had. My advice is simple to all of you especially teenage boys and girls out there, future is unpredictable and we can’t turn back times. The best way to enjoy the teenage life is to live and appreciate what you are and not what others think about you. Girl, if you want to wear pink instead your friend wear black, just follow your instinct and boy, if you like racing (but not illegal racing) over football, just do it. You’ll see what I mean. We follow ourselves for good reason and sometimes, we had to follow someone else just because we feel safe. If you don’t happy with it, don’t do it and if you rebel without cause, you’ll be burned for good. That’s for sure. Once again, thank you very, very much to come. I haven’t had time to write more about my school old days but anyway keep on coming. I love to see all of you coming back over and over again.

Fly Her To Eternal Home ~Tribute To My Mummy~

* Photo source by nyomee wallen (Flickr)

When I wrote this journal entry, my mum had already gone to ‘Eternal Home’ for a month. Before she leaves me and my dad, she had told both of us not to grieve over her and even had asked me to take care of dad. I know that she’s always worry about me from the first day that I born until I’m grown up. I’m always wanted to make her proud and then again, I’m always wanted to give the best of me to her. However, in the end, it had turn into the dust. Wherever she goes right now, she’s always live inside my heart. There’s nothing could replace her love to me in this world.

Special Thank You Notes
To all my close friends, thank you very much for your support, passion and energy for helping me and my dad through these difficult times. We’re both glad and appreciates it.

My Graduation Photo of Music

Maki Goto
"Sotsugyou Shashin"

Kanashii koto ga aru hiraku kare no hyoushi
Sotsugyou shashin no ano hito wa yasashii me wo shiteru

Machi de mikaketa toki nanimo ienakatta
Sotsugyou shashin no omokage ga sono mama datta kara

Hitogomi ni nagasarete kawatte yuku watashi wo
Anata wa tokidoki tooku de shikatte

Hanashikakeru you ni yureru yanagi no shita wo
Kayotta michi sae ima wa mou densha kara miru dake

Ano natsu no ikikata wo anata wa wasurenaide
Anata wa watashi no seishun sono mono

Hitogomi ni nagasarete kawatte yuku watashi wo
Anata wa tokidoki tooku de shikatte

Anata wa watashi no seishun sono mono

Maki Goto was born September 23, 1985 in Edogawa, Tokyo, Japan) is a J-pop singer and a former soloist of Hello! Project and member of Morning Musume. She has performed in numerous Hello! Project subgroups such as Petitmoni, Akagumi 4, 7-nin Matsuri, Sexy 8, Gomattou and Nochiura Natsumi.



* Romanized by Megchan
* Courtesy of imeem

Happy Teacher's Day

Happy teacher's day to all teachers that knows me. No matter where you are right now, you're always my teacher who gave my knowledge to know the world surrounding me. You're the greatest person in the world.

From your greatest student in the cyber cosmic world,



Sylvia John a.k.a. Ryoko '08

MSOD Special Edition: Controversy of The Year 2008

It’s been a long time I did not write any story about my school old days. Is it the end of the story? NO! It’s not end yet. It just that I want to stop but I will continue to write it. Not too soon, not too long either. Well, recently, I’ve talked few students about what’s going on in my old school, SRK (now SK) Tatau and SMK Tatau. Some news good to be heard but some turns into nightmare. Perhaps I don’t really know the real story but I’m disagree about one case that had been become a biggest controversy of the year (2008) when few form upper 6 students were busted out by the teacher for bringing a cellphone to the school. According to the Malaysian education rule, the teacher can’t busted the form 6 (upper or lower) students because they’ve already into university level. I don’t know when this happen but some students had told me that this was happen when one the form 5 students tried to be a ‘CHAMPION’ or ‘HERO’ in the school had report it to the discplinary teacher. He met the students and guess what he do? He ‘ROBBED’ them. He asked those students who get busted out to so stupid councelling and then again, he asked the student to pay a fine about RM30 to get the cellphone back.

I'm totally shock but I couldn't say anything. But I strongly disagree about the case. The person who'd reported the case was actually a girl who tried to get a credit from a teacher. They called her 'SICK'. Sure we can get the popularity from it, but that's really not the way. As far as I've heard, she was the secind choice of the head of the school prefect candidates and she'd sabotage a lot students to get her way to the top. According to the one of the students who'd become her victim, she'd had the teacher who backed her up. Therefore, nothing can stop her way. Whether this rumor true or not, I'm certainly understand the meaning 'GUARDIAN' because I've been through the same thing and it's been repeated from year to year. Whatever happen to them, hopefully, the students of this town will unite and do the best for the sake of my beautiful hometown. I know that one day it will become the city because the future for this town is very bright. I love my school old days which sometimes I hate it for certain reason. But I'm sure God will pay for those become the 'ROBBER' of the future of somebody's life. Till then, sayonara and I'll come back with more and more stories.

The Naughty Students And Crazy Turban Teacher

Everytime, I saw someone wears a turban, my mind always lingering around back in time, thinking about my craziest teacher in secondary school. He’s not only crazy but also making everyone’s headache. Of course, once we look at him, he just an ordinary religious guy but in the reality, he wasn’t like that at all. As for myself, I could never understand the person he was. In this story, I wouldn’t point anyone’s fault but to tell you about the story one of my crazy and also unfavorite teachers. When I was thinking about him, there are lots of thing still leaving me in puzzle. What happens to him? How he’s doing? What he’s up to? Well, the reason of these questions is still playing in mind was around that time, everybody started to talk about controversial issue over Al-Arqam organization. Al-Arqam was religious organization that was claimed to become a false Islamic religion which more into the extremist type of teaching. However, it isn’t something Al-Qaeda type of organization. It’s very easy to identify the Al-Arqam’s followers. When you saw something like nowadays Taliban followers did, that’s the way to identify it. They wear long clothes with a turban while a woman wears head dress something like burqaa.

I must admit, they looks different and makes us little afraid of them but later, after knowing them better; there’s nothing to afraid of because they’re only a human. When I asked about this matter to most of Muslim students, they don’t really know about this organization because for them, it isn’t something ordinary to them. I’m also asking about it to Sulastrie but it seems like she didn’t know about it either. But some Muslim teachers in the school told me that it was a religious organization from Peninsula Malaysia. That’s all the information that they had provided me. I was keep wondering and wondering until a year later, the whole school and even country was shocked over the story of Al-Arqam. The government had straightaway banned this organization and caught the founder and the rest of the followers of the organization. I was wondering if he managed to escape or something else. This whole story was happen 13 years ago. But before that, I’ve met this teacher, a year before this chaos happening around the country. I can say he isn’t really an inspire teacher or even bad teacher. It’s just that sometimes, I found he was little annoying. We called him Mr. Daud but Laura called him immodest teacher. The reason why he’d got this nickname because his hobby is to disturb mostly girl students in the school. He deserved that anyway.

Nowadays, he can be charged as sexual harassment, but seriously, it’s nothing at all. I’ve ever involved in the same thing but I just ignored his joke. That time, I was late and giving a reason of helping Madam Ruzaida to do some work at science lab. He’d started it when he’d told the class that I was actually done some kind of ‘sexual’ experiment. Although, Laura had told me that he’s trying to humiliate me in front of the class, I’m pretending to ignore it because one day, he’ll pay for what he did. It is just wasting my time of thinking about what he had done and moved on with my life. Laura always becomes his victim. At the same time, Laura had become a heroine in the class as she saves all girls students in the class. If only I could put the scene of fight between Laura and Mr. Daud in anime, surely, everybody can see the power that builds in Laura and straightaway kicking Mr. Daud’s butt out from class’s window. That’s does it, huh! Apart from Laura, Melinda had always becomes his victim because she was the prettiest and sexiest girl in the class. Everybody can see how did Mr. Daud had adores Melinda by chiding her around on how she looks when she wears colorful underwear, however, Laura had come to save her on time and certainly kick his butt. We’re only the audience and sometime we had given a cheer to Laura to fight him back. So many times, does Mr. Daud had asked us not to interfere but we can’t help it by giving a cheer to Laura.

One day on the recess time, the students in my class were sitting down together and talk about the serious matter which involving Mr. Daud. Everytime, we heard that name especially the girls, I must admit everybody will certainly wanted to give him just one punch on his head. That’s including me as well. Seti had expressed her concerned and she’s always wanted complain to principle. However, I’m still remembers how did Marcus told it was no used at all as nobody can’t help except ourselves. I’m certainly understand how did Marcus feels because in some other times, he’d just doesn’t wanted to make it worst. Besides, who’s going to be hurt in the end? “Well, that doest it!”, told Laura while she’s stand up and stamp out his feet on the floor. Clearly, Laura feels she had to do something for herself and the rest of the girls in the class. She was eager to do something before everything comes over her head and Mr. Daud must pay for what he did. Everyone just thinking to sort this problem out and hopefully, this will stop his bad behavior over us. The next months, we hadn’t found any solution yet and Mr. Daud’s behavior is getting more annoying and embarrassing.

There are few times, Seti threatens to report it to principle but everybody had quickly shut her mouth by assuring her to get the solution sooner or later. That solution was found when on that time Mr. Daud was brought us to go around the new bazaar of the town to check on the price as part class assignment. As we walked together from school to new bazaar, Laura started to plot her evil plan against Mr. Daud. I’m all tired hearing that for all weeks and it seems like nothing can beat that evil monster out from our sight. Marclister had suggested that we used different approached besides the ‘kicking butt’ plan since it never captured his attention after all. Perhaps, Marclister was right and it seems like Melinda agrees with the idea after all. While all of us still thinking of the idea, there was Mr. Daud riding with his bike smiling around like a mad scientist. “God will certainly forgive me if I’m kills him, right now!” shouted Seti. When he heard Seti said the words ‘…kill him, right now!’ he had stopped his bike and asked who said that word. But none of us answers his question, instead I’m pointing out, we’ve almost reached at the new bazaar. With all that kind of blank face, I think he will ignore it soon.

Then, he’s started to on the motorbike engine and ride all the way at the front of us. Seti was whacked by Melinda and Lengadai at her head. Clearly, Mr. Daud doesn’t like that word. Whatever the things that bothers him, I think Mr. Daud was greatly in trouble but I can’t figure out what it was until a year later. As we had reached the new bazaar, we’re pretending to do our assignments in front of him while Laura keeps on plotting her evil brilliant plan which she thinks it doesn’t anybody else. Sulastrie, Kelam and I were doing the assignment together. I whispered to two of them on how I feel about the thing we’re done is such a crap. But Kelam had whispered to me back that I shouldn’t involve in trouble because whatever happens, just don’t complain much and go on with it. Honestly, I don’t like Kelam’s idea because everybody deserves justice. Another time, I’m really sounded like part X-Men’s superhero and the other times, I would become a DJ that full with music information. Well, I’ve decided to shut my mouth and see what Laura’s up to with her super evil brilliant plan. Meanwhile, Seti still keep her grunge over Mr. Daud. I knew, sooner or later, Seti will do the thing that she had to do. In other words, she’s also plotting her own evil plan against Mr. Daud.

After half an hour later, after we’ve finished sight-seeing the stores around new bazaars, Mr. Daud had asked us to go back to school and finally, Melinda was comes out with her own brilliant plan. She thinks that her plan would be better because it will surely fair and square to each everyone of us. When Peter had asked her plan, she told him and the rest of us, she wouldn’t tell us until we’ve come to the class. It’s got to be stupid idea that everybody will vote for but I must say it’s worth it anyway. Usually, stupid plan always a good plan and no doubt at all everybody will certainly like those. As we’ve coming to the class, Mr. Nyalong had already waiting for us with a smile in his face. “Oh gosh, I’m going to die soon!”, complained Seti as soon as she saw Mr. Nyalong’s face. At least, Mr. Nyalong isn’t irritating and annoying like Mr. Daud. Melinda had told everyone that she will certainly tells everyone as soon as Sulastrie and Awang Farhan will come back from Islam education class. As usual, we’re continues our lesson and at the same time, we’ve talked about the April Fools thing which later, my victim was none other was Mr. Nyalong himself. You can check it out on the last entries on how Haidar and I did something bad to him. Not bad but just being naughty.

Well, those naughty April Fools idea was being able to help everybody especially to succeed the brilliant evil plan done by Melinda. On the next day, Melinda had told everybody about her plan. I was dying to think it was really wonderful than what I have installed for Mr. Nyalong in my mind but to get to know that it’s another piece of suspense crap! “That wasn’t a good idea!” complained Laura. According to Melinda’s plan as if the next week was his class which falls on Wednesday before the April Fools Day, why not doing it early by not greeting him or to chase him away by saying it wasn’t his class but to tell him that was Moral education class. I must say it’s really wasn’t a good idea. But I know Melinda was taking her cautious outcomes. If she’d taken more extreme strategy, it’s definitely a trouble for all of us, very unfixable damage. Unlike me, that at the same time, I’m planning something bad for Mr. Nyalong. Mine is more unfixable. As usual, Melinda will ask, “Do you have any better idea? You want some revenge, fine, you get one. Everyone had the same problem and let everyone have some fist over his face!” Wow, I can’t really believe that Melinda will say something like that.

Melinda just wanted teamwork and if Seti wanted to do her own plan, she’ll do it by her own. Laura agrees with the idea. The others like the rest of us just go with the flow. A day before to execute Melinda’s plan, as usual, Sibin will comes around to and makes fun with Melinda. He’d told Melinda that he’ll tell Mr. Daud about her plan and suddenly, I was come from nowhere, kicking him out from my sight. Melinda had thanked me and told me that Sibin had tried to threaten me about the plan. When I heard Melinda had told me so, suddenly I feel very mad and threaten Sibin back which I’m certainly killing him if he done something stupid and I will never forgive him for the rest of my life. Well, with that scary mimic in my face, he’s certainly runs away from her. At the other times, I’m really thought that I looked scary if I’m get mad but I’m very seldom to do that anyway. Melinda had expresses her nervousness over her plan but I’ve told her that no matter what the outcome was, we’ve already gone too far. At least, we’ve got some kind of stupid punishment like cleaning the toilet again or he will beat our hand with rattan stick. Melinda agrees with me, besides what makes her didn’t think about the punishment at the first place. That’s the reason; her idea was good idea than what did Seti had in mind.

Perhaps, Laura had the same thought as Seti but with all that Melinda’s plan, I think she’s going to change her mind. That day, none of us talk about the plan and not even Sibin. The next day, we’ve come to the class with that happy and naughty face. “This is it!” I’ve told to myself. As I’ve come to the class, everybody started to talk about the April Fools that will be going to be held tomorrow. It’s certainly going to be fun and certainly going to be disaster. Period after period, we’ve been waiting for KHB subject to come. It feels like 100 years. I don’t know what makes me excited about this at the first place but all I know if this succeed, I’ll definitely have my own pranks plan. Mr. Fred had finished his moral subject teachings at my class. It’s quite long but that’s okay because Sulastrie and Awang Farhan will not miss this excitement. Both of them had coming quickly as soon as Mr. Fred had comes out from the class. Finally, the time we’ve all waiting for had come. Mr. Daud had come with the happy mood in his face. When he comes at the veranda, he asked us if this is going to be his class. Well, it seems everybody had shouted to him and said, “No!” Some says it’s going to English class.

I’m just smiling as I looked down to my bag searching for my books. Sulastrie did the same way too. He’d gone out again and we’re looking at each other. Some of them laughed of him and some would say, “Sucker!” Few minutes later, Mr. Daud had comes to the class while holding a piece of wood and then when he enters to the class, he slammed the wood to the class door. It sounded, “BAMMMM!!!!!!!” Everybody turns quiet. He shouted to us and then he demanded us to greet him. With all that dull sounds we greet him. He took no action over us but today isn’t like any day that we used to have with him. He’d make us turns very quiet while he did not play that stupid joke as usual. As soon as his class is finished, Lucas had asked us if he’s going to report to the principle but Jeliah assured everyone that he will not doing that. Laura agrees with Jeliah because if he tried something stupid she’s setting up her plan by telling the truth to principle. Finally, Seti got her chance to tell everything to the principle. While I’m the otherwise, I’m only supported my girls at my class as if in this case, it will have to hurt somebody else. Surely, I hate trouble but whatever it was I hope Mr. Daud didn’t do anything stupid about it because it will succeed Seti’s plan.

On next week, he’s coming again to our class. We had greeted him as usual with happy face as if nothing was happen last week. He’d done the same thing too. Well, everybody was pretending and no doubt at all everybody wins the Oscar awards for the role. From that moment, Mr. Daud did not disturb us as like he used to do with us. It’s really irritating and annoying but when I think about it, he’s really different when he acted that way. If this everyone wants, well, what can we do? It’s safe now. One day, Mr. Daud had told us that he’ll also hold a books exhibition very soon at school’s hall in the conjunction of SMK Tatau Books Festival. When I asked him about the book and if he opens the book store in Bintulu, well, he’s told me that he did. He surely made me laughed but I keep it for myself. On the day where the school held the festival, he did have his own booth. For once in my life, this is the first time, he’d told the truth. The entire class was happily coming to her booth although after the incident, we still afraid that he will report it to principle. I bought something from his booth and it was bookmarks. I’m still keep that bookmarks until I don’t know where I put it after I have move to Miri. It was one of my memories that I’m having with him. A month later, he was announced by the principle to move to the other school with some other teachers as well.

Everybody was shocked and at the same time, everybody was happy because we did not need to see his all weird clothes in the school anymore. Even the religious teacher – Uztaz, did not do the same thing, Laura had told to the class. Another 6 months, we’ve spend the day with the new teacher which is Mr. Pierra. At least, this teacher was definitely okay and he taught us until form 4. I must say he was sucks too but at least, he didn’t do something like Mr. Daud did. A year later, we’ve been shocked with the news over the government decision to ban the Al-Arqam’s organization. When Mr. Sigal had told Mr. Daud was part of it, I feel so bad. What could happen to him? Is he alright? I was wondering about him for years. I did not miss him but I just want to know if he’s found new life right now. Well, I hope that he will be fine and happy with his four of his wives and children. He claimed that he had four wives but I don’t think so. He’s just kidding. Then again, I wish he found a new beautiful peaceful world that he had always wanted in his life. I don’t want him to end his life like any other extremist soldier that I know because his future is here and that was to become a teacher to teach his students with all his knowledge that leads to the happy life.

You Oughta Know About Music

Alanis Morissette
“You Oughta Know”

I want you to know I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theater
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother

'Cause the love that you gave that we made
wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, 'til you died
But you're still alive

Chorus
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
And now you're thinking of me when you fuck her

'Cause the love that you gave that we made
wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, 'til you died
But you're still alive

Chorus

'Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me
And I'm not gonna fade as soon as you close your eyes
And you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back
I hope you feel it...well can you feel it

Chorus (2x)

The Canadian born alternative music singer, songwriter and actress, Alanis Nadine Morissette was born June 1st (sharing with Happy Gawai Dayak Day in Sarawak), 1974 in Ottawa, Ontario, Canada, to a French-Canadian father, Alan and her Hungarian mother Georgia. In 1986, Morissette had her first stint as an actress: five episodes of the children's television show You Can't Do That on Television. Using money she saved from that role, she released an independent single "Fate Stay with Me" with a B-side, "Find the Right Man". She appeared onstage with the Orpheus Musical Theatre Society in 1985 and 1988. She had attended Glebe Collegiate Institute in Ottawa during her high school years. At a New York City audition, Morissette landed a spot on Star Search, a popular American talent competition on which she used her stage name, Alanis Nadine. She flew to Los Angeles to appear on the show, but lost after one round. In 1990, Alanis had signed with MCA Records Canada and was an opening act on the Canadian leg of rapper Vanilla Ice's tour. Leslie Howe produced her full-length debut album, Alanis, which was released in 1991. At the time, she dropped her stage name and was credited simply as Alanis. The dance-pop album, which was only released in Canada, went double platinum, and its first single, "Too Hot", reached the top twenty on the Canadian RPM singles chart. Subsequent singles "Walk Away" and "Feel Your Love" reached the top 40 and were played frequently on CHR radio stations. During the ages 14 to 18, Alanis had suffered from anorexia and bulimia nervosa, catalysed by "hardcore" professional pressure and managerial demands from her work towards making her 1st album.

In 1993, She had moved from Ottawa to Toronto. Living alone for the first time in her life, she met with a bevy of songwriters, but the results frustrated her. Alanis began making trip to Los Angeles working with as many musicians as possible, in the hopes of meeting a collaborator. During this time, she met producer and songwriter Glen Ballard. Ballard and Alanis penned their first song together, called "The Bottom Line". The turning point in their sessions was the song "Perfect", written and recorded in 20 minutes. She improvised the lyrics on the spot, while Ballard played guitar. The version that appeared on Jagged Little Pill, Morissette's next album, was the only take the pair recorded. Ballard and Alanis recorded the songs on Jagged Little Pill literally as they wrote the tunes. According to her, Ballard was the first collaborator who encouraged her expressing her emotions. By the spring of 1995, she had signed a deal with Maverick Records. Maverick Records released her 1st international album, Jagged Little Pill, in 1995. Scott Welsh, Alanis’s manager and long-time friend, and executives at Maverick expected the album to sell at very best around 250,000 copies. The album debuted at #118 on the U.S. Billboard 200 album chart, but the situation changed quickly when a Los Angeles DJ from an influential radio station began playing "You Oughta Know", the album's 1st single. The song instantly garnered attention and a subsequent music video went into heavy rotation on MTV and MuchMusic. Flea of the Red Hot Chili Peppers plays bass on the track, along with then-bandmate Dave Navarro on guitar.

* This song I would like to dedicate to Laura. She loves this singers very much. Without her I never knew there was another world of music. Thank you for that although, we’re the perfect enemy.

My Very Worst Enemy (Part 4 – The Finale)

Laura J. Ningkan

We’ve actually met in the mid-year 1991, which I was schooling as primary school in primary 5. That time, a lot of my friends had been quit from school. Some is getting married. Some can’t afford the money to go to school, some is moving with their parent to another town and nevertheless, some is quit because they’re feeling the school is not really important for their lives. Poverty is the main reason why some student had quit school. For those think isn’t important, they quit because the school’s rule. When I’m started to befriended with Laura, at least, I had someone that I can chat with. Like Maria, she was live in my neighborhood. I’m trying to be the good girl here but soon I realized the reality isn’t something nice to see rather than what I thought in my mind. Feeling like sleeping with enemy, she continues manipulates me but I wasn’t easy to manipulate because I know my limit is. Rather than a good girl that I supposed to think, she is the devil that I’m certainly should get away from long time ago. She loves to showing off, bullying other people, mocking others people, and the most part that I hate about her was slandering other people. I can’t believe about myself when I was young sometimes. I’m still standing firm although she’d done many bad things to me. I must admit that I was change ever since I was graduated from the high school and started the life as the college girl with the new identity. Then again, one thing I must admit about her that she’s good in athletic and thought, she was my enemy, she deserved to be cheer because everytime we need a little more shining gold or silver medallion, she’ll be there to save us. She always cheer me up whenever get nervous in speech competition.

Talk about the good-side of Laura, I seldom saw her crying. She was one of the strong girls that I’ve ever met in my life. If someone needs her help, she’ll definitely lend some. She was good supporter and good in certain subjects that had been taught in the school especially English. Unlike the other students in the school, her musical taste is quite different. This was proven when she had introduced me to the Irish band, the Cranberries and the Canadian alternative singer, Alanis Morissette. Apart from that, she’s even introduced me to Ace Of Base when I was in the early of my secondary school years. I thought she was cool compares to most students in the school. Well, she just the student from the big town and no doubt at all that she almost knows everything about the outside world. That because she had better studying facilities compares in the big town. No wonder everyone just adores her and I’m little bit jealous on her. But that’s normal to be jealous. At least, I know there’s someone that I can compete with. I like challenge sometimes especially in competition. However, those bad attitudes in her seem like manipulating her. Rather than becomes her close friend, I’m better distance myself from her in certain things. I’m started to realize about her bad-side in 1992, where we’re entering the school drama play competition for ‘Projek Sang Kang Kancil ‘92’ for Tatau zone. Of course, I’d made the mistake that caused the time is limited but I can’t believe she said something bitchy behind my back. Like I said before, I don’t care she said whoever I was but please, I just don’t want she said the word ‘good luck’ and ‘bad luck’. She’s yelling around at Miss Melati’s (our dance teacher) house and told everybody that I was giving bad luck to our school. I heard it all when I’m running back from SRB Chung Hua to my home which that very far from my home.

At that time, I thought, my dad hadn’t picked me up. It’s almost late at night. Then again, I can’t believe I was running back at home during the late dark night time. Listening to what Laura’s said is pretty ridiculous thing. Oh my God! I’m gone crazy. That is the first time she’s ever said that thing to me. From that moment, I’m decided not to become her close friend anymore. In one incident 1994, where Ita and I was become school prefect. My duty to become school prefect is almost in the line fire when I have to choose my reputation and her skipping school’s case. Therefore, I picked the second choice. Then, she and the rest of the gang started to extort me but I didn’t report it to the teacher instead telling her that I’m never afraid of her intimidation. She used the harsh word that she’s going to ‘kill’ me but I didn’t care what she’s wanted to do. I used to listen to her bad mouth all the times and it feels like listening to a crap. At lot of things she’d done a bad thing on me until it turns countless. Well, as my mum taught me to become a forgiven person and move on with my life, I don’t have a choice then to hold back until the day that comes to me like sunshine that almost blinded my eyes. Until now, I think she has got to do with the big conspiracy in the school. It was proven after all when she was part of the teacher’s hope list. When I’m coming back and took my SPM examination result, someone had told me she left to report herself to the ITM (Institut Teknologi MARA). I had expressed my pride to her through my classmates and left with a smile in my face. In my mind, I knew the war had just begun. Then, we’re totally lost contact just like that.

Ever since I left the school and my hometown 10 years ago, I’ve never contacted her. I feel just wanted to start my life from level zero again. Meeting and searching the new good friends in the hope that they’ll accept me no matter how weird I am. My wish had granted as I’ve met many friends in the college that respected me as my friend. They’re just weird with their own style. I don’t mind if they wanted to dye their spaghetti hair to pink or blonde (that’s what Donald did!) or even putting 3ft stilettos heel, as long as we’re mind our own each other’s business. I’m almost believes what about my friends said about the life of city people. In my own perception, if I’m choosing the right person to be my friend, no matter what it takes, they’re still a nice person. They’re even worst than the city people, overprotective and ugly old-fashioned minded which they thought it’s new, cool and beautiful. In the other hand, Laura had showed to me half of the life being in the big town in Miri (now becomes city). I’m always optimistic in this matter and I have proven to her that I’m successfully finds what I’m looking for in my life. Without her, I never knew whether I could survive in this challenging world. 10 years later, seems like yesterday and I would thought that she will change her immature attitude. When I’m gone back to my hometown, almost everyone talks about ingrown attitude of her. She even received the complained from several students as she’d become the temporary school teacher in my old secondary school. Not only her students but also my young cousins told the same thing. Laura had quit from her job and now working as a clerk in Bintulu Development Authority (BDA) office.

Well, that’s just life with her and the rest of the bad gang in the block. She was one the hero in the school but becomes zero later when she’s out to the challenging world. What I hope for from Laura is wishing her the best throughout her entire life. No matter what she becomes, she’s always live in my mind. It’s ironic that sometimes that I missed her bitchy attitude. Perhaps that because part of her is a nice girl and no doubt at all her bad attitude had manipulated her until everybody left her alone in cold, cold world. If she’s ever read this, well, I hope she’s stop doing this and started to grow as mature and successful girl. Among all of the bitchy friends that I mentioned before, I think her future is brighter. The thing is she’s never giving up to get something that she wants except the way she does it makes me feel uncomfortable. Until now, I think she’s still have a crush on Mr. Amrizan (our school teacher turns Utusan Sarawak reporter). She’s always called him Mr. Saari Amrizan taken from the famous Malaysian songwriter and also composer, Saari Amri that penned most rock ballad songs for the rock band Umbrella and UKs. Too bad, it’s just like a dream that drift away when the morning comes. I’m two weeks older than her and I found we’re almost having the same thing in common. I know that she doesn’t have too many close friends like I did. But our attitude is different. She doesn’t have friends because her bitchy attitude and I was lost more than half friends because of my creative crazy ideas. For whatever things back then, I think she could never let go the past and I managed to do it, although, I must admit that sometimes I can still feel the pain everytime I remember the thing that she’d done on me. It started to fade away just like that and I guess my pain was healed. I’m always remembers her and she will stay here in my mind and my heart. She always been a good competitor although sometimes, she used dirty tricks to get something that she wants. I guess, it’s better to leave it just like that either we can be good friends or stay as perfect enemies.

My Very Worst Enemy (Part 3)

Roselind Tedong

Her name was beautiful like a rose but beware of the thorn that might make your hands in pain and her dad’s name’s meaning cobra in English. That is Roselind Tedong. For God sake, I don’t know what’s in her mind? She was like a black widow spider that strikes her victim with her deadliest venom whenever the victim hasn’t ready yet to runaway to save their lives. This bitch of all bitches in my school years had clearly making chaos all over the place, not only the school but also at home. I don’t mean she is one person that likes to do physical vandalism. She is more like mental vandalism whereas she is one quiet person that likes to stay at the back near the corner while she’s rolling her eyes just to find someone to become her victim. This kind of person is very dangerous person. I swear to God! When she doesn’t like you, she will try very hard to make your life a mess! Usually, this kind of person doesn’t have many friends. That because everyone around her is just like her enemies. Although, she might treat everybody like that, my parent had always asked me to be nice with her. Okay, that because Roselind was my cousin and besides, her parent was very nice person. Her sister, Zainab, who’d been adopted by her aunty which was married to Muslim man also very nice person compares to her. Her other cousins also behave nicely. Am I the one who’d lost my mind? I don’t know. Even her cousin had told me that she was very evil person. So many years had been passed by and then, I just realized that she was very lonely jealous person who bears a grudge that is very unhappy with her life.

I’ve met Roselind when I was entering primary 1 in 1987 in SRK Tatau. During that time, she was at 1A class while I am at 1B class. Just I used to tell you before – the B class is stand for ‘Best’ class because almost all good students at my class that time. She laughed and keeps on joking about how I am being bullied by Runsur. She thought bullying is the funniest thing that ever happens to me. I know she thinks that I deserved to be bullied by Runsur because I am a fat, ugly and useless girl. What is so cool about being skinny? Hey, even angel had nice big beautiful body. Her body is more like a skinny devil that comes from the hell. (Sigh: That’s why I don’t really do diet! It’s horrible.)Years after years until I have entering primary 5, that’s when I have been put together with her in the same class. I can’t believe what I’ve been through with her except, during that time I’m busy having a fight with Laura (we’ll talk about that later.) and Madam Patricia. We’ve been split again when we’re entering form 1 till form 3 until we’ve been put together once again during form 4 and 5. For two years, it seems like she’s started to ‘declare a war’ with me. I don’t know why but everything that I do, she’ll definitely catch up with me. Day after day, I can sense something is not right. The way she look at me like I was her prey. At first, I can’t believe she had just defeated me during the monthly exam. Wow! I said that was very good ‘punch’. The second, the third, the fourth until had gone to first semester exam, she was over stepped me. Huh! What’s going on I thought?

From that first semester, I’m started to fight her until I was graduated from the school and taking my SPM exam. During that time, I was found Roselind was ‘one of the selected targets’ from many students in the school. I can’t believe this Roselind was in involved in the perfect school’s conspiracy. That means, once she had selected target, there’s no way that I can fight with them because they had guidance at the back to save them whenever they fall. I never told to anyone about this until one day I confessed to my close ‘friend’ about this problem. This was arisen again when one day, I heard Roselind was fall sick. She was put in the hospital as she had found incautious by her friend. I’ve met her uncle and asked about her condition. Even my dad also asked about her condition too. According to both of them, Roselind was fall sick because she didn’t take her meal. I’m feeling little sympathized to her. Then, I was talked about this problem with my two friends where they’ve told me that perhaps she was infected by ‘one paragraph a day’ syndrome. That means, perhaps, she had doing her assignments whereas some students done their assignment only one paragraph a day. I was shocked to hear that. Supposedly, it was one page day but one paragraph a day, that’s way too much! I thought. I must admit she was turns drastically good at the critical subject like math and science. But one thing she’s can’t fight me which is, English. English was supposed to become one of the critical subjects and then again, I don’t care if she can’t beat me at the art. Something wasn’t very right going on here but that time I was closing my two eyes and keep on blaming myself.

Since her drastic good marks had becomes one of the major topics among of my classmates, my uncle Bened think it was odd. I doubt about it too but like I said at the first place, I’m just lazy. Since she was categorized as the top student at my class, her behavior is also change drastically. I can see she was getting arrogant day after day. I don’t care if she stole others from me but she’s also steals my best friend, Sulastrie. Perhaps, Sulastrie didn’t realize this but I’m always to tell her to stay from Roselind as far as she could because her aura is evil. I feel I was entirely left again and I feel I was dying in my heart after she stole my friendship. Although, I thought I was lost in the battle, I could never believe that Sulastrie had come back for me. Even after I was gone, I’m never ever told her this, not to anyone and not to my parent until one day I’ve decided to tell the truth to someone else especially my parent. Some other times, she acted nice but I don’t believe her. I don’t fall into her trap. She can fool anyone else but definitely not me. I guess, she’s the one who falls into her own trap because she haven’t met her real match and even in the real game of life. Years after years, I heard she was getting married. Although, I think it’s good for her but the controversy rumors had sparks again over her marriage. This one, I keep this secret just doesn’t want to make things hard for her. It’s already more than enough as she had learned her lesson (I hope so (-_-)). Whatever happens to Roselind, I hope she’s happy with her life now.

To be continue…